Had to Catch it

David, whether or not you think I'm immature or an ignoramus, I think the whole transgendered thing is silly. I did see two or three signs of your "transgender" on my radar, and I don't quite understand why you would BS in the arbitrage with me more. Is it that you are close-minded with: "only women cry," and you're my crying "wife"? That is my main assumption. Maybe you felt guilty in smacking me around as the man or being transgender and you didn't want me to feel alone about it. I think a lot of the transgender technicalities are mostly absurd and silly. While men and women have their own general characteristics; I think some people can take labeling too far. I know some people take wanting to be another gender seriously, and I have never been one of those types. In my occasional anger, when I think the weight is on me too much, the man expects too much from me, and when the man gets unfair, I have my way of thinking that I'm "the man," in the relationship because of the way I feel I am the one who is being fully relied on and feel the stronger one. I can be the stronger one on occasion, but I feel I've been so weakened through the years in bad relationships, and I feel you notice my weaknesses and your weaknesses. I'm easy to you in your own way because in my weaknesses, I am relatable and not as judgmental against yours. But, I am judgmental against you in some ways and angry against you in some ways. I don't know how strong or weak of a person you think I am. But call me insensitive, I think the transgender topic is absurd, ridiculous, and nothing that I would ever want to personally take seriously. It is just fun and games to me. I'll probably have another person on my back for the way I let myself go, who will want to have some kind of revenge, judgement, or challenge they want to harass me with. I've always been made to suffer any and every consequence in some of the most extreme and ridiculous ways. Because you're getting so emotional on me; I feel I have no other choice than to cave in on you some and be patient and wait. I have to repress my sexual urges more and save what I can for you in my own patient time. I hate Barcelona because of the movie "Vicky Christina Barcelona." That movie has always been one of my most life threatening and mean lies against me.......... My crying "wife": hugs to you David. I'm sorry we don't know each other enough to understand each other enough but you know I make the effort to share myself with you and try to find out about you and figure you out. You know I try to get to know you and understand you. I don't want to change who I am. I've never changed who I was for anyone and when I have my serious tried and true enemies that you make me uncomfortable with from time to time, I have my serious enemies and anger. You underestimate the threat that you are to me. I'm going to try to keep holding out in a more tight way for as long as I can in being patient for you.