You need to get it

I hate you for the emotional and social integrity you never had. You were always going to be too fascist and prejudiced against me and you could have at least tried a little harder in being honest with yourself and honest with other people. You should know by know how violently you've broken my heart in so many ways. You should know you have offended and murdered me in more ways than I can count. You should know there have been many times you never made sense and we were never on the same page. You should know slavery is wrong and you should have paid more attention to your actions and what it means to enslave or subject a person to another. You should know how deep of a scar that was and will always be. I am so sick of your lies and denial you have with other people. I am so sick with how much you keep my truth ignored or unheard of and let people get away with their arrogance that much. Their arrogance and vanity has turned into rape one too many times. Jon, there are desperate people out there who would run the whole field to take advantage of any hint of my emotion. There are violent crackheads that don't know what they're talking about that you would still trust over me. There are people who are so vain and go all the way with their arrogance. You don't understand the paranoia that I have had because people have always gotten away with their lies and their arrogance that much. People give themselves way too much credit when they think they "have me," or have me won or beat. Not only do they give themselves too much credit, they take their credit too far in their violently insane crackhead tyranny that it has always been. It is like you have lived to disappoint me in the most desperately extreme ways. Some people may have had some of my time, conversation, or acknowledgement, but that was all it was. I just don't understand why you think you have game when you subject and enslave me to yourself and others. I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE ENEMY YOU ARE AND I WILL NEVER BE AS LOW AS YOU. You just don't get how much you have angered and disgusted me through the years and the way you have never given up on your controlling will to live and intentionally keeping me in terror with not just what your will to live is, but the dominance you think your will to live deserves. I hate your and other's crackheaded dominance. You're my dumb savage barbarian for life. I know this has been my problem too many times. I know there have been some serious violent and vain pigs who keep trying to say this same thing against me. I know I was never guilty as much as they are. I know I have already outmodeled the hypocrite I never was. I hate anyone who dares test my own model knowing how guilty they are of giving themselves too much credit and dominion. I know Katie, Bree Ann, and Erin are the most guilty. Stacy knows the intentional retard dog of a tormenter she is. I just don't understand the times you know you know you are evil and think you still have game or a chance with me. You need to get that you don't. Fuck you and your "rightful" sense of dominance.