Diary of a stripper part 2

I think I'll start with finishing my story off..... I would have to say I did like the second night of stripping better. I did make more money that night. I also liked that it had a little more space. Although I didn't make as much money as I wanted, I was asked to come back again, and they were serious. The second club gave better spending suggestions for an out-of-towner. They even wanted me working today, but I had already had a scheduled Amtrack train. If I could afford to go back to Baltimore, I would probably try out some more clubs before having a regular. I had a blast though. Stripping really is one of the funnest things to do. If I were to take a week's vacation, I probably would spend a night or two in a strip club. (I guess it depends on who I'm with). Of course not if Mitzi were to be around. I did notice some stalking, aggressive persistence from some men who don't want to let me go or hate the idea of me winning in the arbitrage. However, I wasn't going to let that ruin the freedom I felt dancing. CNN was quick to lie/assume and hate on me by denying my pride and confidence. I know they most likely won't be the only ones who want to hatefully keep denying the truth of my pride like that. (And, I do know, stripping isn't the only thing I can get proud about). Although I spent a lot of traveling money, I still feel accomplished/fulfilled. That is pretty much all I have to say about stripping for now. I was thinking though, while I'm on one route, I might as well put my two cents in to my anger.........In every day life before my first stripping mission......... When I feel murdered, I feel murdered by prejudice, denial, and intentional lies, or attacked from another's aggressive emotional rampage because they know they haven't proved a thing or are winning. I don't know why people fail to recognize the truth of my story so much. There are lots of times when I think someone's aggressions get too sick and too far. There are a lot of people who refuse to accept how many Gadaffi's I have had to put up with. There have been some sicker ones who lived to obsess and be hawkish or even aggressively lie about the level of my confidence or pride. They made confidence to constantly be a number 1 priority in some of the sickest of ways. When I judge people, a person's confidence really is an important thing. I just simply know, some people know they know how to do something, or just are something, and they know they have been disliked for other reasons before. Fascism. It isn't that a person doesn't have the skills, are seriously inadequate, or do not care. A person should never be made to feel such a serious discomfort because they were never conformed enough. I will always think it is so selfish for someone to never give up on a conformed expectation. I think it is sick for the way some people feel they deserve to be in control of another person's life like that. How could some people be so impossibly forceful in expecting to see eye to eye and deny the real identity of the person? In my own personal world, the reason I felt denied was because I was simply never conformed or popular enough. I do notice how I lose and gain popularity some times. I just don't always need the popularity. I don't always need to live with an ego. I know I'm still misunderstood to this day with what my priorities and agendas are. And I know there are plenty of people in plenty of situations that I have already past who will never know the truth for what it was because of the way they chose to judge me and test me.

Diary of a Stripper, part 1

Last night, I officially lost my virginity in being a non-stripper. I stripped for the first time ever. Despite all of the negative things that went on, I had a thrill and so much fun stripping. I plan on going stripping again tonight. Based on yesterdays and todays information, I bet every strip club in this town is socially rigged in one way or another. I can and can't win. I can win because I can be unstoppable in a different way......... What is my main reason of being a stripper? Making money. The thrill and the fun will be worth it this time no matter how much money I make. The next time or the time after, I would have to decline because so far, it isn't paying off. Sad but true. Last night was the first audition, and tonight there is still a lot of possibility of making good money. I am trying out another strip club that I have picked and planned for. The guy already said it should be much different than the previous club. I hope it is, and I hope this trip pays itself off more. Even more, it would be great to have this trip completely paid off and have a significant amount to bring home to keep coming back. Until then, I'm just going to wait to do it when I know I need to, or when I feel the fun and the thrill. Man I hate the amtrack. I had a 2 hour delay on the way here. I also got lost in the DC station and almost cried when I didn't think I would make it to Baltimore in enough time. I just got in in the knick of time. I didn't have time to do my hair. When I checked the time when I was getting ready, I had to really throw myself together quickly. I was pretty upset at how the day went yesterday. I also screwed up with the hotel. I should have just picked 2 days. It was such a nice hotel that I was at. I just didn't know what to expect, or if it would have been better to relocate to a different hotel. I couldn't get the same deal as I got yesterday. I would have had to pay full price which was a price I couldn't afford. I'm still kicking myself for not getting the both nights while I was picking that hotel. I am so mad. I have to pay a more expensive taxi fare now. It is going to cost me more than it should have from the start. Still kicking myself. Next time I travel, I'll have my travel skills a little more sharpened and easier to decide how I travel. I made a wrong choice of baggage as well. My shoulders are sore with red marks on them. I left my self tanner lotion home. I didn't have to worry about it as much yesterday. Today, I'm going to be more paranoid about the blotchiness or whiteness of my skin. When it comes to stripping, I definitely feel more comfortable with a tan. About my actual stripper tell all experience? There isn't one. In the actual stripper setting, you can call me Wildcat and leave it at that or see where else it could go.