As the Sarah Turns: Staying on top

While I feel I am my own pest; I force myself to keep shop with my drama anyway. There is a certain way I want to disappear, but I'd rather not feel buried alive with a lesser control and forced to lose to the world's terrible assumptions. in box/out box............. Jack is the man I want to chase after the most and drama is kept the same. I feel a little bit of fear for the things I don't know about Jack and what his serious desires and directions in life are. Big Ben has me humbled and shy and I don't really know what to say to him. I'm still on my guard in some ways because he doesn't have my entire trust, but he has my friendship to an extent. The copper the copper the copper and my filter with his arbitrage....: Corey O. no, I lost interest in him and would definitely bet he has betrayed me in too much of a significant depth. Randy, no no no. He was a one time fling who I will never find attractive again. I see him as a desperate barbarian behind my back too. Jim F. I havn't talked much about him but I know he lurks around. He is another barbaric man obsessed with his own domination games that I'm disgusted with too. I'm not attracted to him like that at all. There are one or two other men who I can't talk about yet and am staying hesitant with. The original copper, I feel I have nothing further to say. The original copper has me perplexed and confused while I remain on guard. After all of my briefness and discretion; I could never feel like such a whore. The in and out box keeps coming, and I feel a distressed player. Until then, signing off